1) I get to go out to dinner tonight in a lovely restaurant that i have never been to before

2) I have to be in the hospital for 8:00 am tomorrow

3) I am exhausted and nervous all at the same time

4) CG has been in touch

That last point cheered me up no end. Despite having dreams about Mr Director and waking up with heartbreak, CG still managed to make me grin like a loon.

I wonder, when they put me under tomorrow… will I dream at all? And if so what will i dream about? I guess i’ll have to wait and see. But for now wish me luck in tomorrows big hopsital adventure :s

AxXx

We had Toad in the Car Park yesterday (a music festival held in the pub where i work for those of you who don’t know!) and it was absolute chaos. There were people everywhere, we ran out of glasses, the drunker people got the more rude they became and any form of bar etiquette went out the window! Luckily my shift finished at 10, i poured myself a drink and walked away from all the customers still waiting, much to their angry cries of protest!

So i came home, completely exhausted and fell into bed. It would appear though that my mind was against me and i wasn’t to have any rest in my sleep either.

Mr Director invaded my dreams, well and truly. Oh, and so did a kitten (don’t ask).

The dream of him was so real that i almost believed he was here with me. It was only when i woke up and realised i was alone in my bed did it hit me that it had been just a dream. And then the tears came. All i want is to see him again but i don’t know when that’s going to happen. And you can guarantee that given my luck he’ll get snapped up my some lucky girl where he lives and that’ll be the last of it.

Oh i know i can’t expect him to wait for me or anything, but that doesn’t mean i can’t live in hope that one day he might decide he does want to be with me after all. Stranger things have happened!

So then i had to go to work, completely exhausted, and kind of tearful. Not good. I have a brief rest now before going back into the pub at 6. It’s all go for me.

I have a blood test tomorrow morning, then i’m back at the vineyards training someone else how to work the gate (not that it really requires much training.) At least i get to go out tomorrow night, feels like a last supper though. But i’ve got to remain cheerful, i think mum is a nervous wreck enough for both of us!

Speaking of which she’s just appeared bearing a large gin&tonic, a reviver before i head off to work.

Cheers everybody! *clink*

AxXx

Not with the pizza, that was gorgeous (once i got past the burn that is!) No, what has managed to get my goat on this wonderfully relaxed evening is… Adverts.

Not just any adverts mind, oh no. I’m talking about the adverts that promote food for kids.
“What’s so bad about that?” i hear you cry in your silent blog reading masses. Well i’ll tell you.

It seems today that children no longer just eat food. They need food that’s specially designed for them as adults are incapable of providing the nourishment these foods provide. Take for example the new drink from nestle. Two bottles contain all the calcium of a glass of milk. Here’s a question for you… why not just give the kid a bloody glass of milk?! Not only that but it comes to something when the best name they can come up with is “Drinky+” (pronounced ‘plus’). Well done to the team that came up with that one. That’d really inspire me to drink it!

Which brings me on to the new initiative from Hovis. They’ve decided that all children eat junk and so they’ve come up with an innovative new shape to get them eating bread again. It’s cool, it’s hip.. they’re… square rolls. That’s right… square. That’s really cool and interesting. Well done guys, bravo to the new roll shape. Star shaped, now that would be interesting. Or even hexagonal… but no, they decided on square.

*sigh* with all these new products in the world it’s a wonder how we ever managed to survive and grow up. We didn’t have square rolls or drinky+ but we still made it past the early years. Not only that but we did things like play in the street and, heaven forbid, go round on our own to visit our friends.

It seems the things from my childhood will become the stuff of memory, which i feel is very sad indeed. And the likes of Drinky+ aren’t going to help.

AxXx

Why is it that all the chillies seem to end up on the one slice of pizza? Is the pizza man against me?!

Oh god.. it burns… it burns!!!

AxXx

I’m home alone.
I have complete control of the tv.
I have a gorgeous pizza of my own creation.
I have a bottle of wine.

What more could a girl want on a friday night??

… well apart from a very cute guy to keep me company that is :p

AxXx

Not just that but i think it must be a job requirement to be slight sadists… if not major ones.

I turned up at the dentist bright and early. I was there for 2 fillings and a de-scale etc. Not too bad you might think. I got all numbed up and then she started the cleaning process. I just thank god half of my mouth was numb because it hurt like hell then and i dread to think what it would have been like if i could feel everything.

Then she started on the fillings. The top one wasn’t too bad but the bottom one was evil. Apparently the hole just kept going )which wasn’t obvious when she started) so the vibration of the drill went right into the nerve. It hurt… a lot… but not as much as the cleaning did
As a consequence of the hole being so deep, the tooth that they were just going to keep an eye on will now have to be x-rayed and filled. So i get to go back on the 21st this is not a good week health-wise.

So having taken the day off i went into town to regain feeling in my mouth and spend some of my hard earned cash on a couple of nice new tops… well i needed cheering up! And nothing says cheerful like new clothes
And now i’m off to make soup… lots of soup… about 8 pints worth for the parish lunch on saturday. I got volunteered by my mummy! Bring on the onions!

AxXx

I went to the specialist today. Apparently, in order to diagnose me properly they have to do a Laparoscopy - a type of surgery where they make two incisions in your stomach (one below the belly button and one just above the pubic hairline) and then they insert a camera to have a look around. Apparently it’s called a blind entry and things could possibly go wrong (like bits of bowel getting in the way) and if they do then major surgery will be on the cards. But i guess it’s a risk i’ll have to take.

I’m booked in for next wednesday morning and then i’ll have to be signed off work til the following monday. My bosses are gonna love me. All the shifts i’d said i could cover i now can’t! Dagnabbit, i could really do with the cash as well. My health will have to take priority though.

I have to say i’m a little nervous. I’ve never been into hospital in my life. Never broken anything, never fractured anything, never had to be admitted, never had an anaesthetic… and now i need to go get this done. I’ll only be a day patient but still, it’s a nerve racking thing.

Anyhoo, i’m off to bed as i have to get up early in the morning to go to the dentist and have fillings and things done… joy. But at least I managed to get the day off work which means i’ll be able to have a nice relaxing day in town with my mum afterwards.

Night y’all.

AxXx

- oh and in reference to the title of this post, i lost count of the amount of stuff i dropped at work today. It’s been a nightmare. As i say… one of those days.

Bad Casting. The production was fantastic, don’t get me wrong. It was very tightly put together. Scenery was great, lighting was awesome, staging was brilliant… the actors however left a lot to be desired. The two “stars” of the show seemed to be nothing more than big names brought in to attract an audience. The guy that played Seymour was relatively unknown but he was the only one with any real spark of talent… out of the faces we could see that is.

If you’re gonna go see it, see it for one reason… Audrey II. The guy that voiced the “mean green mother from outer space” was spot on… so much so that we were giggling within 2 seconds of him crying “feed me!” Plus the puppetry was amazing… they actually managed to lip sync a puppet to a guys voice!

So Audrey II managed to lift my spirits when Tracy Shaw managed to murder “Somewhere that’s green”… and luckily the guy playing Seymour drowned her out during the duet of “Suddenly Seymour” so it was all good.

So my final review? Worth seeing if you haven’t seen the movie with the fantastic voice of Audrey. Or on a lighter note, worth seeing if you want to have a good giggle and hear some rocking tunes
Now i’m off to indulge in my new fixation… Charmed. Yep, those three girls have gotten under my skin and i’m off to see if i can download a couple of episodes.

“It’s supper time!”

AxXx

So there’s been in space in my blogging recently. No apologies… life happens.

Not only does life happen but so does work. I started off this summer with no employment prospects whatsoever and i now have not one but two jobs. By day i am kitchen skivvy at la mare and by night i am the friendly smiley barmaid at the star in st peters. As a consequence i find myself with very little time to do anything other than work, eat or rest. But tonight i have a night off so i decided to do some much needed updates in the blogosphere.

So where to start. I suppose, as ever, i should just skip the boring bits and head straight to the complication that is my love life. Oh yes… it’s gotten complicated again.

First off we have the crush at work (this would be daytime work, not evening work!) It was bound to happen sooner or later. Cute guy at work, very friendly, very flirty, and i develop a crush as if i were 13 or something! He is rather yummy though… he’s known in the kitchen as delectable boy
So i have my work flirtations down to a fine art. Nothing new there. Being back behind the bar has honed my flirt skills once more, it would appear that i was a wee bit out of practice! Following up from this i have the pull that shouldn’t have happened. I ended up with a guy that i just shouldn’t have and now he seems to think that he’s gonna get a whole more! I’m quite grateful to be working most nights as it means i really am busy and not just making excuses.

Next up we have the guy who should just know better. He was a friend of both J (my first) and Damien so I’ve known him for quite a while. He’s had the same girlfriend for over 2 years and as far as i knew was always just a nice guy. Then the other day he decides to message me and gets way too flirty and way too personal. It’s kinda freaky. He doesn’t see anything wrong in what he’s doing but it makes me feel uneasy. Don’t quite know how i’m gonna face him. I have told him it’s out of line but it doesn’t seem to stop him *sigh* my friend has had the same problem and apparently he just doesn’t know when to stop.

Which brings me up to my last point… J. We’re back in touch and it’s really great. I’ve missed talking to him so much. But sometimes the talking gets to be more than that and things get suggested that really shouldn’t be. It could be just playful talk but at the same time i know it’s treading a dangerous line. He has such power to hurt me again and i really hope he doesn’t. But only time will tell.

Mr Director is always in my heart and mind. I miss him terribly and he comes into my dreams on most nights. I can’t get away from the memory of him and it hurts. I can’t bring myself to go on the pull as such because when i am successful it feels like i’m being dishonest to him. I’m sure that will fade in time but for now it’s still all far too fresh.

And that just about brings us up to date. I’m working hard and when i get the chance playing as well Due to work constraints i won’t be able to blog as often but i will try.

Mum and myself are off to watch the little shop of horrors at the opera house tomorrow night and i shall give you all a full review when we get back, whether you want me to or not!

The a-level results are all out and all over the country students will be accepting university places. This means that soon i will receive the names of my college children soon as will as a rough figure of how many freshers we’re actually going to have at the beginning of term! It’s getting very exciting. Many ents are being planned and my personal favourite at the moment is a planned rubix cube ent
Anyhoo, i’d best be off. I will have bored you all for long enough. But for now i have e-mails to check, Spam to delete and blogs to catch up on. Apologies for the length of this post but i did have a lot to say!

And now i’m done
AxXx

Woo! I managed to get some of the pictures of our float off mum’s camera. Unfortunately the ones from the moonlight parade (for which we won the best illuminations award) are still on the other camera for which i am still without a cable.

Anyway, this first one is a picture of our award winning plate. It is a replica of the one we based our whole design on and is made entirely from harestails (which are a type of grass).

This second one has got the side of the float i was mainly working on. I did the skirt of it and also the hut (yes, the hut!) The hut by the way is just to the right of the tree in front of the bridge. That was all my work and i’m very proud!

I will try and get the moonlight ones up eventually but i need to get hold of the cable.

I will post more when i hav emore to say. A lot has happened in the past few days and i need to sort it out roughly before i can get it on here!

Enjoy the pics
AxXx