So I’m back in Jersey, with a full suitcase and a longing in my heart.

Leaving the boy this morning was possibly one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. I got on the train and as the door closed, the tears started to fall. I really didn’t want to leave. As the train sped me away from him I could feel myself just wanting to stop the train and go right back. But of course i couldn’t. So I let myself be all emotional on the way to the airport, with the guys on the train not too sure what to do about a crying female sitting on her suitcase.

The rest of the journey was uneventful. I had to pay excess baggage charges (which I knew I’d have to) even though the flight wasn’t full. Grr. And I arrived back to a very wet Jersey. Perfect.

Tonight though my mummy and I are headed off to have dinner at the pub, and possibly stay to do the pub quiz. The Boy will be entertaining his family at college and probably showing them the wonders of the college songs this evening (if you do btw, I want pictures!) I don’t know if I’ll talk to him tonight but I do know that he’s never far from me.

I also now have a picture of me and him that was taken last night and I will endeavour to put it up in my next post. Until then I’m going to go mope, and possibly unpack.

AxXx

The packing is finally complete… I think. I can’t think of anything else that needs to be shifted so it’ll have to do. The grand total is:

- 4 large boxes with wheels from B&Q
- 2 pink tidy boxes (stackable ones)
- 2 cardboard filing boxes
- 4 large carrier bags
- 2 holdall type bags
- 1 giant laundry bag
- 2 clear plastic vacuum type bags
my noticeboards and airer will travel as they are.

This leaves me with:

- 1 backpack
- 1 laptop
- 1 suitcase (which is suspisciously heavy - excess baggage here we come!)
- 1 folder (full of lovely resit notes… yum!)

So that’s it. My wonderful stuff mover will be arriving shortly as will the boy and Hoops who have kindly volunteered to help shift stuff.

It’s all go in this house today!

And I’ve had a grand total of about 2 hours sleep… this is really not good.

Axxx

It’s nearly 2am and my room still looks very much un-packed.

Oh Dear.

It’s going to be a very long night.

AxXx

I’m back and finally within reach of a computer (well i was within reach of one I just couldn’t really be bothered to log on) and have decided to update as I’m sure you’re all dying to know what I’ve been up to.

No? … ah well. Skip to the end in that case.

Oh you’re still here? Ok.

I went home. Just for a few days. It was just what i needed. The sun was shining, I had my people with me and my cat had instantly forgiven me for leaving him (he’s finally getting used to the fact that I periodically disappear). I was there for my mummy’s birthday, which also meant I wasn’t here for the ball.

And then I came back again, and impatiently waited for the boy to get back from Geneva. It was unbelievable just how much I missed him whilst I was away. He called me when he got in, and i trotted down to see him. They were all outside and as soon as he saw me at the gates he ran over to me and just hugged me. It felt so good to be back in those arms again, I didn’t want to let go.

So I didn’t. Well not really. I’ve only just gotten back from his where I’ve been since Thursday evening. His little sister has come up for a visit and so I’ve been helping look after her. We’re all going out for dinner tonight too which’ll be fun. Hope she doesn’t mind sharing her brother with me…

Until I go down though I really ought to do some packing. My stuff is being picked up tomorrow and I need to pack my entire bedroom (minus furniture) into a series of boxes. This may take me a while. Once done though I take my suitcase down to the boys and live with him til I leave on Thursday which is gonna suck. It was horrible being away from him for 5 days, God only knows how I’m going to cope during the summer. But I will cope, because we’re going to make this work
But until then, on with the packing! Any tips on how to get through it any faster?!

AxXx

For that matter, I’ve also left the country.

I’m taking a few days off to go home and relax whilst the boy is away too.

We’ll be back on Thursday.

AxXx

My brother kindly asked you to come over here and give me some lovin. To those that did, thank you. I really needed that.

The reason for the need of love is fairly simple. I failed one of my exams and so have to come back in August. Not the nicest of things but it’s not the end of the world.

On the flip side it means I may well get to go down to London and spend a few days with the boy, though this may well have to be after the resit!

In other news I’m going to a Hatfield formal tonight which is all very exciting. They plan on getting me very drunk but I’m sure i’ll survive. Plus if I do end up being ill it’s the boy who’ll have to deal with it so hopefully common sense will prevail.

Right now though I need to go dry my hair and make myself presentable. Anybody know where I put my gown?!

AxXx

I’m writing this entry from the comfort of My Boy’s room seeing as it’s horrible and wet outside and I didn’t particularly fancy walking home in the rain in shorts and flip flops! So I stayed here… such a sacrifice.

Last night was the 21st birthday party of his and his friend. They decided to have a joint party that landed slap bang in the middle of their birthday’s and it became quite comical when people kept wishing them happy birthday and they had to explain. In the end they just took to saying “thank you” as it made life a lot easier. The party was held in the Riverside Cafe at the Union and the theme was Sex on the Beach. After the initial worries of nobody turning up we ended up with around 90 people which was really fantastic. There was a good buzz in the air, everybody was smiling and relaxed and I wasn’t too nervous about the fact that I had to sing with the band in front of a room full of people that I hardly knew.

I was originally only supposed to be singing sk8er boi but a frantic phone call earlier in the day meant that i had to learn the words and music from Sing For Absolution (Muse) as well. The singer of the band had very little voice left and it would’ve just been too much for him if he’d actually attempted it. So it fell to me. 3 hours later I was fairly confident that I could do it, even though I’d never heard it before I attempted to learn it (shame on me I know).

The band kicked off at about 9:30 and played their first 4 songs which got everybody suitably excited. Then after a short break, it was my turn. I switched from alcohol to water (always a good plan if you’re trying to remain coherent!) and took my place on stage. Sk8er Boi went off without a hitch and it got me nicely relaxed for the Muse track. After a brief hitch with the piano player (he was trying to smoke as well as play) we got going. Everybody recognised it instantly which had me worried but it went off perfectly. I could see the people watching me were singing along and The Boy just had this massive grin on his face which really put me at ease.

Having finished singing I went and found my very strong drink to calm the nerves. I really enjoyed it though, and just seeing the looks on peoples faces was enough to know that I hadn’t screwed up.

It was also Castle Day yesterday and I’d been fielding phone calls all day about whether or not I was going to show up to the bar. In the end I didn’t as the party was a much better place for me to be and was far more important anyway. It tapered off when the bar shut but about 20 of us managed to stay and have a boogie (in a circle, oh the shame!) The room looked fantastic due to balloons, glitter and sweets on various tables. What more does a party need?!

Afterwards we headed back and had drinks and chats out on the balcony. Luckily I’d managed to fill our glasses before somebody broke the wine bottle. When everybody finally left I curled up in bed with My Boy, happy to have him to my self. Ok, so I know it’s kind of selfish of me to want him to myself but i was very restrained during the whole party!

But the evening ended just how I wanted, with me curled up safe in the boys arms. I couldn’t wish for anything more.

So that brings us on to today. I woke up to find several distressed text messages from people asking why I hadn’t been at college but none of them really minded that much. We’ve spent the day listening to music, reading the papers and generally having a very relaxed Sunday afternoon. I love this kind of day.

Now all i need to do is figure out what I’m going to do with myself this evening. But there’s time yet, and spontaneity is a good thing.

As far as weekends go, this has definitely been one of the best in a very long time. I don’t really want it to end.

AxXx

I’ve never been to a festival… ever. I’ve never seen any well known bands live (though i have worked the mini gathering we have at work but that’s not quite the same). I missed out on a chance to see the futureheads as we went to find food. But now I find out that they’re coming to Jersey.

I’m very very excited! Tickets for Jersey Live go on sale on the day I’m actually at home so this year I may well be able to get to a festival! Go me! There is more information about it here and i definitely want to go. So if anybody is in Jersey and wants to go with me, let me know!!

On a different note today is the day of my boys party. The weather is being a bit pants but it won’t affect us too much. I’ll just look very odd walking through the streets in beachwear (the theme is sex on the beach!). I’m singing at it too and i’m really looking forward to it. I love singing with a band and I haven’t done it nearly often enough. I just hope I don’t mess up!

As well as the party, today is also the start of the recent graduates weekend at college. I’m hopefully meeting up with a friend who i haven’t seen for ages which’ll be cool. Mr Director is coming up but i think we’ll manage to miss each other, me being at the party and everything!

Right, i’m off to go and create that “just threw this on” look which takes about 3 hours. *sigh* being a girl is so hard sometimes.

AxXx

p.s - Melissa has posted her interview answers and you can go see them here… go go go!!!

Melissa coasted in off Rachel Ann’s site and asked to be interviewed. Now that i have a wee bit of time on my hands i thought it would be an ideal time to pose these questions, so here we go.

1) You have recently become a mother to Mallory Grace (who really is adorable by the way!) If you could freeze any moment in time since her birth, what would it be and why?

2) What event from your childhood is something that you hope your daughter will also have the chanve to experience?

3) What is the one moment in your daughter’s life that you are dreading to happen?

4) Is there any point in your life that you wish you could change? Following on from that, if you were given the chance to change it, would you?

5) You are able to have dinner with any single person dead or alive and ask them 3 major questions. Who would you have dinner with and what would you ask?*

So there we have it. I’ll let you know when her answers are up. Questions for Cobby will be arriving soon. If anybody else wants to be interviewed then just leave me a note in the comments.

AxXx

*this question will go out to all interviewees as my brain can’t think of more than 4 original questions for people!

Ok, so as well as the interview meme, my brother dearest has also sent me this music meme. Well, it’s not as if I have anything else to do!

Total volume of music files on my computer:

Ok, according to the litte thingy at the bottom of iTunes I have 8.71GB, plus i know I have a few extras kicking around somewhere that aren’t on here. Most of my stuff is still on CD though, how old fashioned!

The last CD I bought was:

Hmmm, the last CD I bought was Employment - Kaiser Chiefs. But i’ve also discovered the joys of music online so the last “CD” I bought there was Songs About Jane - Maroon 5.

Song playing right now:

Right now it’s playing Oh Atlanta - Alison Krauss. It’s the live version though and is truly fantabulous
Five songs I listen to a lot, or that mean a lot to me:

Jesus, this changes so often it’s unbelievable! On todays top 5 though we have:

* Maybe I’m Amazed - Jem
* Bastardo - Charlotte Hatherly
* Whiskey Lullaby - Brad Paisley feat. Alison Krauss
* This Love - Maroon 5
* California - Phantom Planet

Five people to whom I’m passing the musical baton:

Well, My boy beat me to it with Cozi (damn you!) so I’m going to have to think of a few other people. Let’s see:

* Cobby - It’ll give her a break from her exams
* Damien - Let’s see if he’ll actually do it
* Pam over at Camp Happy Bad Fun - thought I’d spread the MuNu love
* Indith - just because her exams have finished and I’m intrigued to see what she has to say
* Starmage - It might give him a break from exams.

And that’s it! Go to it people, let’s see what you’ve got.

AxXx