I don’t seem to be able to update properly at the moment.
There’s so much stuff going on and yet when I sit at my computer (or lie in bed with my computer on my stomach in this case) my mind goes blank.

I finished at the Vineyards today. Did my shift, handed in the keys, walked out. Totally uneventful. Ok, so I have to go back in on Friday to pick up my wages and social security card but that’s not the point.

I’m having my hair done tomorrow which is quite exciting. And then mummy and I are going to see the new version of Pride & Prejudice in the evening. Very exciting!

I also seem to be spending a vast quantity of money this week. I went into town to get a replacement for my Benefit moisturiser (aptly named “touch me then try to leave”… gotta love it!) and came out with a few small boxes and a makeup brush that totalled £99. How did I manage that?! Remind me to stay away from beauty counters for a while.

I fly back to college on Sunday morning. I’m excited and scared at the same time, it being my final year an all. I’m so happy that i get to be closer to my boy though. Now he’ll only be 3 hours away by train… woo!

It does really suck being away from him so much. But just knowing that we’re going to make this work makes the distance and time apart seem less. He’ll be coming up to durham around the end of the second week which really isn’t that far away. I just can’t wait to see him. It feels wrong being away from each other.

*sigh*

In other news, it’s just gone 1am and i’m in bed with a brew. What more does a girl need?!

…

actually… don’t answer that!

AxXx

You have got to love the glory that is Skype.

Now i can talk to my boy for free! yay!!!

So so happy! I would bounce but i’m lying down
If you don’t have Skype already, go get it! Then hunt me down under Lemurgirl
AxXx

It’s late. And I can’t sleep. I haven’e been sleeping properly for a while now. I think I know what’s been causing it but i don’t like to think about it so I’m not going to share it (so there).

I just wish, for once, I could sleep peacefully. Have an entire, uninterrupted night. I can’t remember the last time i slept through the night on my own without the assistance of alcohol or a full day and nights work.

This totally sucks. though on a brighter note, i do appear to be learning how to touch type without really thinking about it. Go me!

AxXx

I swear to God there is nothing cuter than my cat lying on his back, paws over his nose and emitting little squeaks of a snore.

It just makes you want to eat him all up!

This is the second night in a row he’s been in with me. I think he knows I’m leaving again soon. Not good.

*le sigh*

For now though… look at his little cuteness! Well ok, you can’t… but imagine it anyways dagnabbit!

AxXx

I just saw a trailer for chirstmas planning and hampers and things. That’s not too bad I thought, it’s later than usual. I watched it until the end, and then they hit me. “start your planning now for Christmas… 2006!”

What the fuck?! We haven’t even gotten past this one yet?! Grr!!!

I don’t like to start thinking about Christmas until the very end of November but this is just ridiculous.

It put me in a bad mood.

Hmph.

AxXx

I passed! I passed! I passed!!!

I’m still on an honours course! Yippee!!!!

I’m off to bounce around my room with tears of happiness streaming down my face
AxXx

Autumn appears to have started and close on its heels will be winter. So in the spirit of that, I have purchased some new boots:

I’m very excited!

It’s the little things that keep me going at the moment
AxXx

I just spent the latter part of my evening doing impressions of a wookie.

Go on, try it. It’s harder than you think.

It did make me laugh though, which is what i needed So thanks go to all of you who contirbuted to my giggle fit.

Oh and congrats go to Jeremy who just placed the 700th comment on here. I’m so proud!

AxXx

He hides where I can’t see him. Then, when I’m least expecting it, he strikes. The air in the room is whipped into a frenzy as he launches, the curtains billow, and I have to shield me eyes from the glare of his gigantic eyes. The thought of him lurking makes me huddle up under the covers, afraid to take my eyes off the ceiling in case he strikes. But he waits, he’s good at waiting.

I’m being terrorised in my own bedroom.

And the culprit? This hideous creature of the night whose mere presence makes me tremble in my bed?

A moth… a giant moth.

This thing is evil I tell you… eeevil!!! For the past 2 nights he has tormented me and evaded capture. He can actually hear me coming, I swear to God. Last night, I had a cunning plan. I know, I thought, I’ll turn the big light on and he’ll be attracted to that. I can sleep with the light on. Genius! So I hopped out of bed and padded across the carpet to the light switch, being careful not to trip over the careful array of shoes that I have on the floor.

Eagerly I looked up toward the light, expecting him to be drawn in against his will. But he’s stronger than I thought, and instead he calmly flew off and landed on one of the glowing stars that adorn my ceiling. And there he sat, looking down at me smugly. Lying back in bed a wagged a finger at him ferociously. You shall not defeat me you wee beastie! This war cry issued forth yet instead of him trembling in his little mothy boots, he just lazily flapped his wings… and didn’t move. Cocky bastard.

I lay back against my pillow, determined to win this battle of wills. Everytime I felt my eyelids droop I’d snap awake again, until finally I could no longer fight it. Sleep claimed me, and the moth made his move. As soon as my breathing rhythm changed, he attacked. Swooping down from his perch on the star he aimed straight for my face. The wind and noise from his wings had me awake in an instant, swearing and flailing my arms round my head as though I were in a disco for the rhythmically challenged. He’s too quick for me though, and disappeared again.

I got up and turned the light off, my cunning plan having been foiled. I could still feel him though, lurking in the dark, waiting for me to lower my guard.

And when I woke up, Mothra had called in his minions. I had become an “all you can eat” buffet for the sadistic mosquitos that he called to do his bidding. My back and arms are covered in little bites, they even went for the palms of my hands. I have an odd crescent shaped cut on my thigh, and I can’t help but think of this as the calling card of my nemesis.

He’s somewhere in my room. Lurking behind the lightshade maybe, or skulking amongst the shoes. All I know is he waits for me, and the battle rages on between us.

Damn him and his mothy ways. I will never give up… never surrender!

AxXx

I’ve got a restless feeling inside me. It’s starts off as a twitch in the legs and moves on to sleepless nights and emotional moments (I started crying when the cat ate my toast).

I want to get off this island again. Going away from a while made me realise just how cramped it is here… and how lonely. I’ve lost count of the number of gatherings I’ve been invited to and couldn’t go to. There are people I want to see and I can’t because we’re not even in the same country.

I miss my boy terribly as well. I keep dreaming he’s here with me then I wake up to an empty bed. It’s such a horribly painful feeling. It feels as though part of me is missing… which really sucks by the way.

I want to be back in England. I miss the river and the countryside. I miss the people and the ability to go wherever I want without having to worry about how much it’s going to cost me just to get there.

I have a restless feeling deep inside me… and it’s getting worse.

Yet another sleepless night awaits me.

AxXx