Having survived the week in Durham I am now sat in the flat with The Boy (and his daddy). Tis all very exciting.
Proper update and pictures (on Flickr) coming soon.

Miss yous!

AxXx

Tomorrow I’m getting on a plane.
This plane will take me back to England, back to the boy, and back to many job possibilities.
I’m really excited…

…

… but I’m also terrified.

AxXx

So my 365 Days challenge is well under way. You can see the photo’s here as they are public and you don’t need a flickr account to look at them.

Not too sure how I’m going to cope with taking self-portraits for the next year so any suggestions would be greatly appreciated!

AxXx

My tamagotchi is a mother!

That’s right people. After careful coaching and getting to know another gotchi, they had kids in the pub this evening. Great place to bring a child in to the world right?

I won’t get to interact with the baby until Fred* dies, but at least the family will live on.

Woo!

AxXx

*Fred is the name of my current incarnation.

So here I am.
Sat on my bed, tamagotchi by my side, attempting to make my CV look fabulous.

I have such the thrilling life.

Tonight sees the start of The International Choir Festival of Jersey. Sounds fun right. Well it should be, it’s just going to be bloody hard work at the same time.

I’m bored.

One thing that has tempted me mildly out of boredom though is this project from flickr. What do you think guys? Am I capable enough to take all these photo’s?

Answers in the comments please (and I really mean it! Make me feel loved!)

Right, back to the CV.

AxXx

The boy has just left again to go back to London and as I have nothing of note to say today I’ve decided to do a meme which has been snaffled from Fleurdelista. So here goes:

IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?

So, here’s how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that’s playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don’t lie.

Opening Credits:
Something’s Gotta Give - Sammy Davis Jr
Well that’s a nice start to my life move!

Waking Up:
Buffy’s Lament - Sarah Michelle Gellar (Once More with Feeling)
lol, you’ve got to love iTunes. The version I have starts off with an alarm clock going off! Fab’lus!

First Day At School:
All My Friends - Counting Crows
“One way or another just hoping to find a way to put my feet out in the world”… ooo, poignant!

Playtime/Childhood:
All Of This - Blink 182
Quite apt really, just depends which part of the childhood you look at.

Falling In Love:
Night Of My Nights - MGM Studio Soundtrack (Kismet)
“Songs of delight and delicious desire”, plus it has a very funky tambourine line and it mentions peacocks and monkeys. That’s how I always remember falling in love. I had a peacock wafting me with a monkey…

Fight Song:
Angelica - Lamb
It would seem that any fight I have would be a very graceful, possibly slow motion affair. And I’d win. Of course. (the one fight I can recall being in was over very quickly so slow motion would be the best thing for it me thinks)

Breaking Up:
Whiskey Lullaby - Brad Paisley & Alison Krauss
Wow, no explanation needed on this one.

Prom:
Something’s Missing - John Mayer
I never really had a prom, would a college ball do? Hmm, artistic licence I guess.

Life’s OK:
Dr Mowinckel - Kaizers Orchestra
Norwegian Oompa, I have no idea what he’s singing but it sounds kinda cool!

Mental Breakdown:
Rolf Royce - Hotel Costes 6
Not exactly the track I had on during my last breakdown but it’s a similar sort of style.

… this is starting to get a little freaky …

Driving:
I Wish I Was A Girl - Counting Crows
But I am a girl! And I can’t drive! but other than that…

Flashback:
My Generation - The Who
Wicked! Nuff said.

Getting Back Together:
Walking 2 Hawaii - Tom McRae
“Every bridge we build we burn, and we never learn to swim, so let it go…” Doesn’t really bode well for the continuity of the relationship does it?

Wedding:
Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol
I love this song so so much, and I think it’s very apt. I may even have it at my real wedding one day, maybe the first dance…

Birth of Child:
My Beloved Monster - Eels
Teehee! My child will be my lil monster! Woo!

Final Battle:
By Starlight - Smashing Pumpkins
Again a very chilled out fight. I obviously kick butt in a very sexy and suave way… and in the middle of the night.

Death Scene:
John Lomas - Seth Lakeman
“Was condemmed to die… willingly I took his place”, well this should be a fun experience…

Funeral Song:
She’s Out Of My Life - Josh Groban
Well this is suitably depressing, and I wanted a party dagnabbit!

End Credits:
Local God - Everclear
Wicked way to end my life movie!

So now it’s your turn people, let me see your life!

AxXx

October is Breast Cancer Awareness month and so following in my brother’s footsteps I have done as much as I can to go pink for October (it’s not a lot but it’s the best I can do!) and so I now have a spanky new badge and pink lemur!

Yay!!!

Many thanks to mon frere who pinked up my lemur, it’s beyond my capabilities!

And for those of you who are interested, Friday is the day where you can wear pink to raise awareness. So come on people… think pink!

AxXx

I present you with this:

Americans Getting Quizzed On World Affairs.

Go take a look, and if you don’t like it you can blame hubby dearest!

AxXx

Last night I was busy mocking my roots (as you do) and today I am once more a root free blonde bombshell with a spanky new cut.

Pics may well follow if I can get it all organised.

That is all.

AxXx

Life has a funny way of catching you by surprise. You can quite happily be getting on with everything when suddenly BAM! Life itself pulls the rug out from under your feet. And boy does the ground hurt when you land on your arse. But the people that pull you up again are the same people that watched you fall in the first place - Old faces in new places. Well not quiet new places. The place in question was the annual real ale festival that we have over here but I’ve only been once before. So it’s a bit like finding a £10 note in a pair of jeans you haven’t worn for a while - you welcome it with open arms and joy but only too soon it’s all gone again, and the jeans get put back in to the wardrobe and forgotten about once more.

How is it that things can change and yet stay exactly the same at the same time? Not just things but people and circumstances. On Friday night I came face to face with people that I haven’t seen at all for the last 4 years - and it was as if we were all still in school. That has to be the weirdest feeling in the world. I spent my formative school years with these people and then we went our separate ways. That was it. Or so I thought. Meeting them again made me realise just how much my life has changed. They really did act like they hadn’t left school. The same group of friends, the same stupid jokes. But despite all that part of me relished the idea that none of them could take their eyes off me.

I’ve changed a lot since I left school. University had a big part to play but more importantly my confidence has increased to such and extent that it shines through, and I don’t recognise the person I once was. And that person? She was a bit of a mouse to say the least.

Admittedly, all of these people were a little bit drunk (it was a beer festival after all!) so everything was taken with a large pinch of salt, and maybe pepper, and even a little bit of chilli, who knows? But even so. My vain side - and yes I do have a little one even if she doesn’t come out to play very often - loves the effect I have on people who haven’t seen me for a while. Where my arse hit the floor is closely followed by their jaws, and I can’t help but grin. But they don’t know me. And they try to treat me in the same way that they did when last we met, and that’s not a good thing. They may still be the same people, living the same lives, but I’ve come too far to go back to that. So as I walked away at the end of the night, I was finally walking away from an old life. And it felt good.

The knowledge of how far I’ve come, and how much I’ve changed, makes me smile far more than any compliment could. I’m happy, I’m settled (for now) and I have the love of a guy who knows me for who I truly am, faults and all. There’s not many people who can lay claim to that. And you know what? That’s worth more than anything else I could ever wish for.

I live my life for now and the future, whatever it may hold. The people and places of my past can stay where they belong - ensconced on the dusty shelves of history.

AxXx